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深い青 (Fukai Azul)
09 October 2011 @ 09:01 pm
I think most of kids are intuitives.



When I was a little kid, I was a sensor. I couldn't believe of Santa in Christmas, neither in tooth fairies or fantastic beings. I just didn't believe any of them were real. I had this Wendy complex, I wanted to be an adult, I wanted to be taken seriously so I tried to act all adult like and stubborn when trying to convince others I wasn't adorable. 

I was curious, I used to ask this and that, I wasn't afraid of showing myself, I wanted to be the center of everything. I wanted to be admired, I wanted to do everything just right, I was popular. I'm speaking about my early five or six years.

I feared nothing, I was impulsive and I had a group of boy-friends only, of course I was the one giving orders there. I was a rebel, rebel against mothers trying to make girly daughters. It was all about me, me-me-me. The world had to be under my feet for me to feel happiness.

I wanted adventures, I wanted to be independient, I wanted to be free, not asking permission of anyone and doing what I felt like doing. I was a hard-heart kid, I helped no one, liking dogs only. And my mind? It absorved all information around me, quick mind, daring sight, always alert.  

Time passed by, I don't know if that was my true nature. I grew up hearing and learning what I was instructed... but something seemed just... wrong. Something was wrong, wrong, wrong, really wrongI struggled to know what could this be. Years trying to find out what was wrong in my life.


And then... I opened my eyes

 
 
◘ Somehow I feel: accomplishedaccomplished
◘ I'm listening : What about my star - Megumi Nakajima
 
 
深い青 (Fukai Azul)
25 September 2011 @ 10:54 pm
Pasa desapercibido, hihohohoCollapse )

 
 
◘ Somehow I feel: artisticartistic
 
 
深い青 (Fukai Azul)
04 September 2011 @ 02:17 pm
Sabes de...Collapse )

 
 
◘ Somehow I feel: calmcalm
 
 
深い青 (Fukai Azul)
14 August 2011 @ 08:00 pm
¿Estás esperando abrir los ojos?

Ten en cuenta que una vez que lo hagas ya no habrá marcha atrás
A partir de ese momento no podrás ser libre;
vivirás arrastrado por las leyes universales que rigen al mundo.
Y muchas veces no sabrás que rumbo tomar porque no encontrarás alternativas.

Sufrirás y te desilusionarás,
pero es normal,
la vida es cruel y esto que digo es realidad y más advertencia.

¿Qué harás, entonces, sabiendo esto?

¿Vivirás con miedo y temor acoplándote a esa corriente que parece no tener ramificaciones?
¿A caso te vendarás los ojos y seguirás adelante?

o... o...

¿Serás tan terco de creer en un mañana distinto y te atreverás a desafiar lo que observas por más que cueste y, además, criticarás mis palabras hasta que pruebes que no tienen validez alguna?
¿Existe si quiera alguna alternativa distinta a las mencionadas?


Querido niño por nacer, quien no sabe del camino que tiene adelante, me pregunto

¿Qué harás cuando decidas abrir los ojos por primera vez?
 
 
◘ Somehow I feel: thoughtfulthoughtful
 
 
深い青 (Fukai Azul)
29 May 2011 @ 11:22 am
Damn, I don't know what to do but THANK A LOT to a dear anon, it looks that person was worried about me. Thanks for the candies and the small present, whoever you are <3
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◘ Somehow I feel: bouncybouncy
 
 
 
深い青 (Fukai Azul)
10 May 2011 @ 09:00 pm
If you found a magical stone that could keep one person young forever, would you keep it or give it to someone else? If the latter, to whom would you give it?


 I'll keep it for myself (for now). I want to know so much about what there is next... and time is never ever enough plus I don't want the dear ones to watch me die... Also, that's a lonely life that just myself could bear... (well...)
 
 
◘ Somehow I feel: coldcold
 
 
深い青 (Fukai Azul)
06 May 2011 @ 11:19 pm
 ¿¡POR QUE YA NADIE HACE ICONOS BONITOS!? ¡QUIERO!  ;__;
y los haría yo pero no time for them >_<
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◘ Somehow I feel: apatheticapathetic
 
 
深い青 (Fukai Azul)
28 April 2011 @ 10:11 pm


Look at me
You may think you see who I really am
But you'll never know me
Ev'ry day
It's as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

I am now
In a world where I have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

There's a heart that must be free to fly
That burns with a need to know the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide?

I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else
For all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
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◘ Somehow I feel: contemplativecontemplative
 
 
 
深い青 (Fukai Azul)
17 April 2011 @ 08:58 pm
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I'm a dreamer
, a hidden power

My world
Is built with dreams, love, and anxiety
But things that I can't even imagine must be hiding there

Like trees that face the sky
I'm looking straight at you

I want to find itCollapse )
 
 
◘ Right now I'm at: Peru, Lima
◘ Somehow I feel: soresore
◘ I'm listening : Maaya Sakamoto - Platina